This is my column for last week's newspaper.As I stood singing a worship song in church not long ago, I suddenly had tears in my eyes and goosebumps on my arms.
We often sing worship songs that tell of the remarkable power of God which can be seen through his creation, but that week a particular song struck a chord with me that it hadn’t in the past, and I suddenly felt a renewed sense of awe and reverence for this God who is the creator of the world and who still loves me.
The song was “Not To Us” by Chris Tomlin, and the lyrics go like this;
“The earth is shaking The mountains shouting It's all for You
The waves are crashing The sun is raging It's all for You…
Not to us, but to your name be the glory…”
My reaction was caused by a recent adventure I was able to experience.
In January, I had the opportunity to trek the challenging 11-mile Kalalau Trail on the island of Kauai. It is a strenuous enough trail that the Sierra Club ranks it 9 out of 10 in difficulty. And it is notorious enough to have inspired many blogs and youtube videos whose intent I believe is to scare people out of their wits before they even try it.
This is the kind of experience my husband relishes in. Challenging wilderness types of adventure that necessitate carrying all of your supplies on your back, sleeping on the ground and filtering drinking water out of streams and rivers – all miles and miles from the nearest modern potty.
Early on in our marriage, I dubbed these excursions his “man trips.” Why? Because no woman in her right mind would consider going. In fact, I have questioned my husband’s sanity more than once as he has sat on our living room floor carefully filling his ultra-lightweight backpack with his ultra-lightweight sleeping bag, his ultra-lightweight tent and his ultra-small camping stove that boils water ultra-fast.
But he decided last year that we should go on one of these trips together for our tenth anniversary. And after several months of chiseling away at my resolve to never do such a thing, he finally convinced me not only that I could do it, but also that I really wanted to. So, we took a practice trip on the Superior Hiking Trail last summer (which is a story in itself), and recently returned from our Kalalau Trail hike.
The trail jogged in and out of valleys and up and down the mountainside. Switchback after switchback would take us deep into jungly areas with almost no direct sunlight, and more switchbacks would take us back up and out onto daunting cliffs with what I believe are quite possibly the most spectacular views on earth. Down in the valley we saw a lot of interesting vegetation, but I would find myself just wanting to get back up and out to the views that made me feel as if I was standing somewhere near the top of the world. Not once did I fear falling off the edge of the cliff (in fact, we had an agreement before we started, that if I got too freaked out we would turn back), but I did stand in fear of the God who created it along with the mountains towering behind me and the giant waves crashing hundreds of feet below me.
When we completed the 11 miles, we were rewarded with our own private paradise (save a handful of others who had also hiked the trail) complete with a mile-long beach, beautiful enormous Pacific Ocean waves, and green mountains standing menacingly high behind us.
The beauty was incomparable. And the awe that consumed me was like none I have ever experienced.
Which brings me back to the worship at church. As I sang the words of the song I have sung many times before, I was taken back to those cliffs and back to that beach. Previously, I had sung of what I had not seen. Now I sang of a place I had experienced. I had sunk my feet into the sand. I had seen and heard the waves crash so loudly that I was forced to raise my voice to be heard over them. I had camped in the shade of great mountain peaks. I had stood beneath a crystal clear waterfall.
And that is where the goosebumps and the tears come in.
When I think that this God, who created all of these things, also created me and loves me so much that he sent his son to earth to die for me, I am humbled and amazed. And it just makes me want to worship him even more.
And don’t tell my husband, but it kind of makes me want to trek back into the wilderness to see what other hidden treasures in creation I can add to the new collection of memories etched in my mind.